my willingness to part with sadness
is an equation with no solution

half forgotten teacher of madness
release me from my pride

I’m done thinking about 2+2=4
I need a more solid and complicated formula

derivatives, calculated risks, probabilities of success

where will I end up at the end of this equation
what’s the sum total of becoming a basket case
or even worse
I could disappear and = 0

I can have some new proof, meaning, wholeness, truth, wisdom
and the ability to receive it

and all I have to do is give up my attachment to sadness and let go

the math is easy
but performing the calculation is not

it’s a long and winding staircase that gets foggy as soon as you start climbing

where will I find my faith?

not in tears
but in counting them
and the clarity that comes after them